New life, new blog.


let it roll.

its been close to a year. While its true i've moved on and started being happier, things are definitely not the same.
Been thinking back alot recently. Back to the accident scene, back to when it all started. and also some things that i shouldnt have held to heart as well. Guess i do want to take this chance to apologise to a person whom i've been rather unfair to. Alot of emotions were involved, and particularly shortly before the accident things were not going with with her and seng either. Lots of misunderstanding and pettiness as well. Come to think of it, its no point letting things be like this either. Better to have a friend than an enemy right?
So, i dunno if she's reading this, but hey, i'm sorry for being that emotional wreck the past year ok? I know it wasnt fair to her either cuz it wasnt her fault. It was an excuse on my part to dislike her cuz of her misunderstanding with seng. What's over is over. Nothing can be done to change the past, but at least something can be done about the future. What i really hope now is that we'll all call it a truce. Even if we cant be friends, but we wont be enemies. :) And i think that'll let seng rest in peace too. really miss seng...... :(

Other than that,
this hols will be kept really busy!! brandstorm, violin, church and so on!!! bleah.... i want a holiday.....

took a test on facebook... hahah.... and i think its pretty accurate. and i DONT find anything wrong with the analysis.

Temperament
Idealist
You are the quintessential dreamer - spending more time thinking about the possibilities that the world holds for you, rather than your reality. You don't settle for anything less than what you truly desire and you work very hard. You tend to live in every place except the present - you are prone to daydreaming about the future and re-thinking the choices you made in the past. Sometimes you get overly caught up in your thoughts.
Interests
Simple
You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.
Amusement
Thoughtful
You are easily stressed out and overwhelmed - you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Because you tend to be self reflective, you know your limits quite well and must remember to not exceed those limits. When you overwhelm your life with obligations and responsibilities, you tend to shut down and go into yourself even further. Take some time to find your serenity and kick back your feet.
Passion
Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.

One would have thought the term break means loads of free time to catch up on school work, but guess its not true after all... spent two entire days in finishing school... mostly a waste of time. pretty good for catching up on lost sleep though. then another few more days with high fever out of nowhere. *i wished for a moment the stock market had gone up the way my temperature did*

then another few days not doing anything productive at all and it is now that last day of term break. bleah. tutorials and revisions not done.

this reminds me of lots of other stuff not done as well. pictures. somehow a valiant attempt to update my blog with pictures has dwindled to a sheer determination that is only mental.

one day, i'll just lump all those pictures together into one entire blog post. haha.

quite alot of things running through my mind now, wondering at possibilities that are endless.

Especially for my little brother, he's 14 as of today!! welcome to teenage life xiao di... its kinda sad to not be able to celebrate for him.. been quite a few birthdays away from home without his two sisters... but well, despite being the irritating little thing he usually is, we still love him!
guess he'll just have to wait til dec for a birthday treat then.
funny thing about my little brother is how he has become soooo vain over the years. apparently he had a haircut yesterday and he hated the look of it. came home crying and refused to go to school next week. damn funny.
part of growing up i guess... at least he bothers about his image unlike most guys i know... hahaahhaha... :p

enough slacking for now. gotta get back to writing my term paper. *boring*

Been a long while since i last updated. almost forgot my password too...lots been going on. ups and downs...

damn sian now. sitting in MA tutorial stressing about all the work i gotta do, my obviously flunked finance quiz, flattened car, insurance payment, road tax payment, insurance excess payments, school fees, bills and what not.

and getting even more affected by the reactions of some people. gonna crack soon. waking up everyday and feeling that invisible pressure upon me. maybe that explains the multiple heartburns i've been having. too much to bear.
dun wanna be too close cuz dun wanna feel sad. i'll stay away and give you peace and a stressfree life.





i need comfort.


lots of it.



anyone knows where i can get some proper TLC??

too lazy to compose a post for now..., so here's another email i got....

Jeff and Karen were both patients in a mental hospital.
One day while they were walking past the hospital swimming pool,
Jeff
suddenly jumped into the deep end. He sank to the bottom of the
pool
and stayed there.
Karen promptly jumped in to save him. She swam to the bottom and
pulled Jeff out.
When the Head Nurse Director became aware of Karen's heroic act, she
immediately ordered her to be discharged from the hospital, as she
now
considered her to be mentally stable.
When she went to tell Karen the news she said, "Karen, I have good
news and bad news."
"The good news is you're being discharged; since you were able to
rationally respond to a crisis by jumping in and saving the life of
another patient, I have concluded that your act displays that you
have
a sound mind."
"The bad news is, Jeff, the patient you saved, hung himself in the
bathroom with his bathrobe belt right after you saved him. I am so
sorry, but he's dead."
Karen replied, "He didn't hang himself, I put him there to dry.
How soon can I go home?"